SIRO-1107 Amateur Personal Shooting, Upload. 191

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She doesn’t want others to know her true self. She thinks that way because her real self is very weak, introverted, and has an ugly personality. She would rather die than have others see that side. So she dyes her hair a bright color, wears gyaru makeup, tans her skin to a wheat tone, and dresses up to arm the self that others see. In other words, when she goes out she is in combat mode. After entering high school she developed this style. Wanting to change the small, disliked self from childhood, she decided to belong to a gyaru group. She remembers being extremely nervous when she first spoke — that moment felt like a decisive scene that would determine the rest of her life. The words she had thought out were very trite, but contrary to expectations the group welcomed her kindly. From then she learned many things and how to arm herself. She was told that early experiences are better, so when a stranger approached her on the street she went to a hotel with him and got it over with. It hurt, but the joy of being the same as everyone else was greater. From then on she repeated the same thing almost every day, layering bodies with various people and leveling herself up further. When she finds herself alone, a sense of emptiness sometimes wells up. That is undeniably her true feeling, and she felt there was no need to hide it. Even so, she can confidently say she is far happier now than before. That is her identity and her stubbornness. She will not abandon this stance. Someday she may truly fall in love and want to start a family; she has that vague feeling, but she thinks she can consider it when the time comes. Every day, every hour, every minute, she keeps searching for whatever makes her happiest. So today she is embraced by a stranger again. Today it’s a shoot where she will also get paid. If she can earn money from this, it might be her calling! she thought.